So, frandz, it’s been a while.
A while since I’ve written here, and a while since I’ve actually seen any of you, or anyone. We’re all in the same boat here, but wow. I can’t say it’s a fun time. And I’m sure I am far from the only one whose mental health is taking a beating, what with all this social distancing and covid-19-related anxiety.
Every day lately, it’s a constant stream of updates, everywhere you look. New cases, new precautions – just more and more information, so much so that it’s overwhelming. It seems everyone around me is completely on edge, which is completely understandable at such a crazy time. I’m not an exception to that, either – I might be past that edge; anxiety at an allllllll-time high. For those of you not in-the-loop of goings-on in my life, in the weeks leading up to and kind of overlapping this whole pandemic mess, I:
-have had to cancel travel plans, without knowing if or how much reimbursement I’ll get from the airline,
-bought and moved into my first house, with my boyfriend, living together for the first time,
-am still working nearly full-time, day-in day-out, dealing with the germy public. (because banks are an essential service, somehow).
I don’t mean to say all that in a “poor me, my life is so rough” type way…more of a life update, a lil background info so you know where I’m coming from when I say yeah, I’m kind of stressed out.
Now, in the meantime, I know I’m lucky. Travel-wise, I’m sure we’ll get airline credit, if nothing else. House stuff – it’d be kinda stressy whenever we made this huge leap, but my boyfriend is a frigging angelface of a human, and I’m so grateful for him during all this. And work? Yeah work sucks. But I could be laid off; I could be suffering financially right now; I could have even less social interaction if I didn’t get to leave the house for work every day. So yes, I know, I don’t have it too bad.
The thing is, that doesn’t matter to the little stress factory in my head; it’s working full-tilt.
I said in a half-recent post that yoga is no longer my be-all, end-all, redeemer of my life? Yeah, sorry, that was in a whole different lifetime, I think. These days, my yoga mat is the only safe, familiar place in my world. And holy heck, I’m grateful for it.
Yoga has been an every day thing for me for several years, but these days it’s an absolute necessity – as vital as food and oxygen. Even more than ever, I make it a priority to spend time on my mat each day. For a small bit of each day, I can escape the madness, and find some normality. No matter what else is going on, no matter how crazy and scary and messed-up everything else seems, yoga remains the same.
I do miss the yoga community, though. I miss attending classes, and I really miss teaching classes. I’ve jumped on the youtube yoga bandwagon and posted a few vinyasa videos, but teaching to a camera in an empty room just isn’t the same. The day can’t come soon enough when I can roll out my mat at the studio and see all my familiar yogi friends.
It is what it is, I guess. If social distancing and staying home is what we’ve gotta do, at least we’ve got options. Thank Buddha for the youtube. Hopefully sometime in the next few months (/years? I hope not that long..) things get a bit more normal.
Til then, fill your boots with the yoga therapy. It probably won’t sub in for a covid vaccine, but for the mental stress of it all, it’s the best medicine I’ve got. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself…Stay home, stay healthy, wash your hands, do your yoga – you know, all the basics.
Much love, but SOCIAL DISTANCING no hugs (man, who would have thought I’d miss something so silly), and sending you all the good, healthy, happy vibes